In case you haven’t noticed, I’ve been blogging daily here. At first my intent was to be a personal essay daily, but then I just…did whatever I wanted. Maybe next month will be personal essays?
But the biggest challenge in blogging daily is that usually after I’ve reached the halfway through mark, I get restless, frustrated, and even some writer’s block.
Here’s what I think happens:
- I blog daily about whatever I want and I don’t care about who reads it, making writing easy
- There’s a lot more engagement on my blog, which gets me excited
- I start getting nervous, thinking about people reading my blog, and then I stop
Right now I’m struggling with knowing what to write, which is ironic, since I just wrote a post about overcoming writer’s block. It’s like I jinxed myself.
But then I read this Austin Kleon blog post and something resonated with me:
My friend Dave, a few months ago, he asked me, “So what are you excited about right now?” And I couldn’t give him a good answer. “I don’t know,” I said. “I just don’t know.”
I relayed the question to my friend Curt, and he shrugged it off, and said, “That just means you’re looking.”
Maybe I’m just looking right now. But the thing is, I can’t stop creating. Because clarity comes from engagement, not thought.
I’m not Mozart, I can’t just think and then barf out a sonata. I have to bang it out, make ugly notes, figure out what sounds good, and maybe stick with that for a while.
It’s a never-ending dance.