Looking

In case you haven’t noticed, I’ve been blogging daily here. At first my intent was to be a personal essay daily, but then I just…did whatever I wanted. Maybe next month will be personal essays?

But the biggest challenge in blogging daily is that usually after I’ve reached the halfway through mark, I get restless, frustrated, and even some writer’s block.

Here’s what I think happens:

  1. I blog daily about whatever I want and I don’t care about who reads it, making writing easy
  2. There’s a lot more engagement on my blog, which gets me excited
  3. I start getting nervous, thinking about people reading my blog, and then I stop

Right now I’m struggling with knowing what to write, which is ironic, since I just wrote a post about overcoming writer’s block. It’s like I jinxed myself.

But then I read this Austin Kleon blog post and something resonated with me:

My friend Dave, a few months ago, he asked me, “So what are you excited about right now?” And I couldn’t give him a good answer. “I don’t know,” I said. “I just don’t know.”

I relayed the question to my friend Curt, and he shrugged it off, and said, “That just means you’re looking.”

Maybe I’m just looking right now. But the thing is, I can’t stop creating. Because clarity comes from engagement, not thought.

I’m not Mozart, I can’t just think and then barf out a sonata. I have to bang it out, make ugly notes, figure out what sounds good, and maybe stick with that for a while.

It’s a never-ending dance.

2 comments

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

w

Connecting to %s